I was leafing through the pages of my old journals when i found a piece of paper where I had written an unfinished exposition. I thought I must have written it while waiting for the client or patient while I was still doing on-site interpreting assignments. I read in this paper...as a kid my mother me told she would usually find me in one little corner reading or scribbling while my other siblings were out playing in the backyard. I chuckled and said to myself here I still am, today, in this little corner.
I could have gone out. I have long been kept inside the walls of Lilyland, a modification of Lilianland by which Brett named my property. However, I opted to stay at home. Thank goodness, I did! Or I could not have enjoyed the glorious rhythm of the rain that is falling right now on the Stratco roof of the extension of my house. Had I gone out, I would surely come home like a wet duckling.
Why do I always go in this little corner? I never bothered to know the reason why—not for many, many years.
After minutes of wondering and reflecting, I know now why...
It is only in this little corner where I can enjoy my own company and listen to the deep groaning of my soul and spirit, thereby know myself more. It is in this little corner where I have all the liberty to be me. I do not mean to say I wear a social mask, or any kind of mask for that matter, when I am out there. I never have—not in any shape or form. When I am out there, however, there are norms and standards to follow. Could I just burst out in tear or laughter accordingly as to what my thought processes are, for example, when I am in the congregation of the saints? Could I wear the comfy, sleeveless ruffled-linen purple dress I am wearing now which shows my arms and my neck. Not at all –not because I have not done enough restraining exercises to have the arms of Michelle Obama, but because I am a little bit conservative!
Yes, it is in this little corner where I am most relax, calm, comfortable and free. Where else could I enjoy the music and dance to its rhythm using my own funny steps to lower my blood sugar levels without getting laughed at? Only in this little corner...
It is in this little corner also that I soar limitlessly into heights of spiritual, mental and intellectual mountaintop experiences.
And most of all, it is in this little corner where I can endlessly talk to my Maker and pour out my heart’s deepest desire in tears and in prayers for all the people I love who are sick and hurting.
